Sunday, July 23, 2017

I'm Trying


    I am trying my hardest to be happy in my life right now. I am trying to be excited about this new chapter in my life and all of the new adventures ahead of me but it's been extremely difficult. I broke down this morning because I miss my church in Nebraska. I had made such a great life for me in Nebraska but all of a sudden I've been uprooted and having to figure everything out all over again. But I'm trying. So here's what's been going on the last few weeks while trying to get my life back together.

Beach Weekend!
     The family and I took a weekend trip to the beach in California. It was hard because my POTs was acting up. I adventured around California with my camelbak backpack filled with water and tried to stay as hydrated as possible. I'm trying to not let my illnesses get in my way. I'm finding ways to adapt to them and to try to be as normal as possible. But even after all of my adapting by the end of the weekend I was exhausted both mentally and physically. But even though I was flushed and dizzy most of the weekend I did have a good time. I got to walk along the beach and racked up about 5 miles of walking throughout the weekend which is amazing for me! I also tried boogie boarding, which didn't work out to well because I got slammed against the rocks and pushed under the waves, and then admitted defeat to the ocean and just watched from a distance.

First Hospital Visit in Las Vegas!
     Tuesday morning I was hope alone, except for the AC guys who were up in the attic. I don't know what happened. I was completely fine one minute and then the next minute I was a gonner. I always call the fire department when I have a reaction because it can go from bad to extremely bad really quickly. I called. They were having a hard time finding me. In Nebraska you were able to go online and fill out a form that would be kept in the dispatch system. My form basically said if they received a call from my number and no answer to automatically send help and my address for when I am unable to speak. But here in Vegas we don't have that system so they were having a difficult time finding me. The dispatcher asked if I was able to make it outside. I could but not all the way out to the street. The fire truck couldn't see me from where I was sitting so they kept driving. They were finally able to find me and took me to the hospital. My mom met me there and was able, for the first time, to see the reality of my mast cell activation disorder. They were able to give me my usual steroid, nebulizer treatments, and benadryl to help calm my reactions. Only after my two rounds of epi.

Another Ear Infection!
     Shortly after getting back from the beach I started getting extremely feverish. Like I would be running a fever of 103 and could not get it to break no matter how hard I tried. At first I thought it was just my body getting used to a change in my blood pressure medication dosage but one morning I woke up with extreme pain in my left ear. I was crying it hurt so bad. My friend drove me to Urgent Care where I have never been so humiliated by a "doctor". I'm used to medical professionals not believing me because my illnesses are invisible. And as frustrating as that is, I understand it. But this doctor completely dismissed the fact that I came in with a high fever, irregular heart rate, and extreme ear pain. She told me to stop being a drug seeker and was trying to discharge me without even looking at my ear! I finally talked her into just looking in my ear. And even after confirming that I did have a major ear infection she still wouldn't give me an antibiotic! Claiming that I was only trying to get add another medication to my list... Why? Why would I want to add ANOTHER medication to my list? Why would I want go through another set of side effects and take another pill if I really didn't have to. I needed the antibiotic to get better from the ear infection. After having to fight for the care I needed she finally wrote me a scrip for Z-packs and she had me escorted out of urgent care by security. I won't be going back to their facility anymore.

...Yet Another Allergic Reaction!
     On Friday, we had a family dinner. My parents were out of town camping but the rest of my family was there. I had yet another reaction. I couldn't immediately peg what caused it but I started to get extremely nauseous. I walked back over to my apartment and got sick shortly after getting home. I took two Benadryl and sat down on the floor to wait for them to kick in and make the nausea go away. (Gosh, I can't wait until I can get IM benadryl that will work faster.) The anaphylaxis hit again, fast, like always. I called my mom because that's what our deal was. My dad answered her phone and stayed on the phone with me until my Grandma and my uncle were able to come sit with me. By the time they got over to me I had already administered epi. They didn't understand why even though I was doing better I needed to go to the hospital. But my protocol is as soon as there is airway involvement I have to give epi, and if I give epi I have to go to the ER. My grandpa was kind enough to drive me to the ER and sit in the waiting room while I got checked out. I was taken back and was stable for a while. While sitting and waiting for the doctor I had a secondary rebound. The nurse came to check on me because she could hear me breathing... She hooked me up to the heart and O2 monitor, and umm well it wasn't good. I was sitting at 78% which is not great. The doctor came in and ordered benadryl IV, pepcid, and a steroid I had never gotten before. The nurse pushed the steroid first and all of a sudden it felt like my whole body was on fire. All I could do is scream and try to breathe. It burned so so bad. The nurse quickly pushed the benadryl and sat with me until the burning sensation dulled a bit. They moved me to a room right across from the nurses station so they could keep a constant eye on me. Which always makes me feel more at ease. They gave me IV normal saline and a neb treatment and then ended up releasing me later that night. After all of that we realized that the reaction was indeed caused by the antibiotics the cooky doctor from the night before put me on. The ER doc prescribed a new one before I left which was nice.

Keeping On!
     Even though the past few weeks have been a complete roller coaster that I feel like I can't get off of. A roller coaster that I don't want to be on I'm still trying to keep my spirits up. My new roommate and I met my parents up in the mountains and went for a short hike. I'm still trying to keep my hopes up and not let all of this medical jargon get the best of me. I'm trying and I think I'm doing a pretty good job at trying. I will keep my hope in Christ. Because I know he has a plan for me. Let's keep trying friends! Let's not lose hope. Because one day, it'll get better.

With Love,
Elizabeth <3

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