I Am Allergic To Benadryl

If you don't know I have Mast Cell Activation Disorder. Which means at some point in my life I will become allergic to everything. It sucks and I hate it but it's a fact of life that I face every day. So much so that I take 50 mg of benadryl every four hours to keep symptoms at bay. This is causing me to be sleepy. All. The. Time. But because of this disease if I don't have name brand benadryl and not the "allergy relief" brands I am okay. Because the way the medication is compounded I am allergic to. So if all you have is benadryl and it's an allergy relief brand I will take it. Because it doesn't affect my body enough that I'll care. However; knowing this about myself I do make life threatening decisions every second of every day. Here's How. 

I AM Allergic To Water 

Knowing this about myself sucks. I am so hyper aware of everything all the time that I question if the water I drink will cause anaphylaxis. I love certain brands of water and I refuse to drink certain brands like Arrow Head. I don't know how I decide which water to drink and which water not to drink but I know that I hate Arrow Head so much that I wonder if it's causing an allergic reaction. And I know that I like water from a Britta filter so much that I wonder if it's because I'm not allergic to it. I also wonder if this is a big reason I love swimming but don't go. There are some pools I'm in that I get so itch and red I wonder if I'm allergic to the chlorine. Which is why I think I've had so many severe reactions at Wet N' Wild I refuse to go there because I wonder if I am so allergic to their chlorine it's affecting me I have to go to the hospital. But I wonder if I were to go to another water park I'd be 100% fine. 

Sleep Is A Trigger

I am not allergic to sleep. But sleep affects my life so symptomatically that I am. Because I sleep is such an allergy symptom relief for me I feel like if I just go to bed for a few minutes I'll be fine. That lack of sleep and sleep exhaustion makes it look like I'm drunk. So if my symptoms are bad the likelihood is that I am so exhausted and dehydrated that I look 100% normal if I haven't slept a solid amount in the last month. So if I ever seem drunk, high, or tired. Tell me so I can go sleep for a few hours. 

I Hate Unfamiliar Social Situations 

I want to go to church and youth group so bad but have never found one accommodating symptom wise that I have never gone. Now that I know this there were several places I felt safe enough to and never gone and I regret that. So if you feel comfortable handling something if it were emergent please let me know. Because I probably want to but symptom wise I am not because I don't feel safe there. 

Life with this disease is a living hell. I can't explain that to people. But I wouldn't wish it on the worst person. So please take that into account if I cancel plans. 

With Love, 

Elizabeth <3 

Ephesians 2:5